The Process

I’ve been having a harder time than usual coming up with stories and poems. It’s a little frustrating at this point because I’ve had a lot of these moments recently and I know I’m better than what I’ve been writing lately.

I think a part of the problem is that I haven’t been reading anything that’s really inspiring me to work on my own style. Catch-22 was definitely helpful in reminding me that it’s possible to laugh out loud while you read. It’s something I’m more aware of when I write, but it’s not a life-changing realization.

I’m not looking for that kind of moment either, but I do want to read something that makes me not want to put the book down, something that makes me want to put my life on hold while I invest in every single word on the page.

Right now I’m reading White Noise, which you can find on my August Reading List, but I’m not enjoying it at all. I’m the kind of reader that has to finish every book I pick up, so this is a big struggle. The Panic in Needle Park is next, which I’m actually really looking forward to reading. Until then, I have a poem about the writing struggle.

The Process

I write a little at a time,
then delete away,
as if it never happened,
but the frustration grows
regardless of the fresh start;

I know I’m better
than what I put on the page,
and I ignore the good
that comes from the process
(it shouldn’t take this long),

but I keep going anyway,
with the understanding
that one day it will be easy
and the process will turn
to instinct.



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3 Comments Add yours

  1. tara caribou says:

    I’m one who will put a book down if it’s not meeting my needs or I don’t like it. Why? Because there are millions of wonderful books out there and I simply don’t have the time to waste on inferior or non-useful reads. Some books are poorly written. Some aren’t my style. Some are obnoxious with their misspellings and poor grammar and lack of proper punctuation. But there are many, many more that will change my life, my mind, my heart. Those are the ones I want to spend time with.
    That said, I feel for you, unable to find that writing spark within. I wish you positive writing thoughts, for what it’s worth.

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    1. Much appreciated! To me, putting a book down that I’m halfway through is like leaving a restaurant after ordering a drink. I’m always looking for one redeeming factor because even though I don’t find the book good, a publisher obviously did, meaning there’s something about it other than market value that makes people want to read it and analyze it. Still, that’s not an obligation to finish something I don’t like so maybe I’ll get to the point where I feel less obligated!

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      1. tara caribou says:

        Yes, I can understand your logic. I just hate wasting my time 🙂

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